>I might be a little cynical this morning but I think I’ve figured something out. Well perhaps. I suppose the final conclusion will not be seen until we are with God. But I think that C.H. Spurgeon said it right:
We hold that man is never so near grace as when he begins to feel he can do nothing at all.
You can tell when you are starting to get on the right track when you realize you never were on the track to start with. Fallen man in all of our facades and divine self-perceptions have failed to draw the connection between how far off the mark we are in comparison to what the implications of a God showing up to die for our salvation means. How serious is our depraved state that dying on a cross is the method of salvation from the same God who speaks and things just happened in Genesis 1?
I’m not some super Christian or attempting to be a martyr by any means. But the older I get the more I realize how much of a failure I am. Especially at the things that I am given to do. [There is a hypo in that I wonder if I would feel this if I wasn’t preaching/(assoc.)pastoring or fed way too much theology and Greek in seminary. I venture to say the rest of my circumstances would have led to the same conclusion.] You try to love people but we do not completely understand one another, try to teach and lead father/mother, sibling, etc. but everyone has a different need (or thinks they have a different need), attempt to be sensitive to His direction and there is so much regular thunder in my ears some days its tough to hear God’s thundering whisper from all the other noise and you start to recognize exactly what Spurgeon was getting at. WE really can’t do anything at all.
That’s a tough one to accept. It is clear we do not accept that by how we relate to others. It comes across clearly in our expectations. We are asking or expecting (in many cases unwritten rules) one another to be something that in ourselves we are incapable of doing. And in many cases we are not sure of our expectations. There is where real grace enters in. When you see what you do not have enough to accept the fact that others do not have it either then you can recognize that God extending ANYTHING at all to us is more than we ever deserved. Or perhaps I should just say I don’t have it, so how can I expect you to. But even in that lack God shows Himself in many ways regular. Sometimes just in the benefit of the doubt. Now we are starting to embrace the fullest extent of grace.
Its the moments or realizing our nothingness that you understand that God is really something. How can you be absorbed with God if you are still absorbed in yourself? And likewise if grace is extended to you so that you may extend it to others there will be no dispensing of grace as long you are the only somebody that matters. If Jesus had been concerned with only Himself where would we be?
God’s fullest extent of grace is seen best when you start to see yourself properly. And understood by you best when you start to see others properly. When people start to matter to you more than yourself you’re starting to get it. It starts to change your daily plans and how you spend your time worrying about. And all of this occurring is because of the grace of God. We would never care unless He granted us the ability to do it.