My wife and have been blessed with some truly special people who go out of their to give us some time alone every month. Yesterday my God daughter was added to that list.
We went to see this play we’ve been planning for some time. [All apologies to all who were putting together a picture of leaders but dates with my wife are not a regular occurrence. Adding me to the picture would only cheapen its inherent value.] I was a bit surprised by the language. There was a particular part in the story line that I found rather interesting. I will do my best to unpack the point as I recall:
A character was explaining things that happened in her life and explained that as time unfolds with a series of mishaps, mistakes, and problems she tended to dwell on those events to the point where she became a sort a life in suspended animation. I think the character was on to something.
It seems possible that whether the experience is good or bad there is the danger of ‘staying there’ too long. If you won, you keep replaying the win over and over. When you lose it keeps replaying you. And you can almost smell the agony in the air. Either side has its dangers when the pool of our pasts become stagnant to the point of mediocrity. For the good memories you are left with a tasteless appreciation of what is the present: this thing doesn’t add up to that thing in 1995 so this thing needs more salt….
Or things so bad happen you can begin to understand what today is: This thing is far better than that bad thing that happened in 1996 but 1996 was so bad I cannot get over it.
When our past has superseded the present the present is not a present any more.
I think the character in play was right to a degree. You should not go backwards and set up camp in the past. But I would add to it “…unless you go far enough back.” You can’t stop at your life’s events or even your family/ancestries events. All of those can leave you suspended.
Until the most significant moment of your past is the event of the cross, to dwell on any other moment has the potential of leaving you in suspended animation.